The butterflies in your stomach kept you awake. As much as you tried to sleep, you just
couldn’t. Thoughts of the year ahead
raced through your mind. Would you like
your teachers? Would you be accepted
into the popular group? Would you make
new friends? Would the cute boy notice
you?
Those butterflies—well, they translate through the years
into adulthood. They have the nerve—the irritating
audacity—to follow you!
Ever since I turned in my resignation I’ve been feeling
them flutter around. Anxiousness over
leaving and anxiousness over beginning have mixed together to form a girl
living in the limbo of the in between.
A week from today my time at the bank will come to an
end. I’ll be reeling—a girl comfortable
in routine and the expected, I may have an aneurysm when I turn in my keys.
The good news about nervousness is, just as it is with
sorrow, it keeps you in need of Christ.
We need Christ all the time, yes, but, unfortunately, I find that
nervousness is quite a good propeller.
Recently, I fell in love with a Subaru
commercial. You know the
one. A cute little blonde-headed girl
holding her daddy’s hand before the bus arrives to take her away to school on
her first day. Dad lovingly watches her
board, and before you know it, he has hopped into his trusty Subaru, driving
alongside her.
Isn’t that an image of God? He lets go of our hand, and watches us. Crying when we cry. Rejoicing when we rejoice. But He does one better than the Subaru dad.
He’s doesn’t just drive side-by-side, but unto us He has
given the Holy
Spirit.
"…that is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive,
because it does not behold Him or know Him, but you know Him because He abides
with you, and will be in you." John 14:17
The Holy Spirit just doesn’t sit beside us on the bus,
but is in us.
Which, let’s face it, is pretty cool.
John 14:26 reads: “But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom
the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your
remembrance all that I have said to you.”
And teach He does.
Encourage. Convict. Push.
In Acts 8:29, we see the Spirit pushing Philip the evangelist.
And the Spirit said to [him], "Go up and join this chariot."
Go up and join this chariot? Okay, Holy Spirit. Philip is aware of His presence and obedient.
And you know what? Philip
got to do some pretty cool things before he left this earth.
And by cool I mean he got to save lives. Save.
Lives!
God gave me a chariot to board.
And God sent the Holy Spirit right along with me. The forgotten
God interceded during interviews,
through assessment tests, through interactions—pretty sure He was there through
everything.
And so after writing this, I’m not quite sure I am still
so anxious as I was at this entry’s beginning.
I look upon all that He has already done to know that He is ahead of me
already, having the Spirit guide me in the present as He walks ahead in my
future.
Whatever chariot He’s asking you to board, He’s not
expecting you to ride alone. Not just
beside you, but in you is He offering comfort as God sets your path before you.
“…He will give you The Comforter, that He may abide with
you forever…”
And comforted, let us rest tonight to greet tomorrow not
in anxiousness, but eagerness, with a peace that surpasses all understanding.
