For there cannot be one without the other.
No, the taste of sweet would not be so sweet without
knowing the expense of bitter.
I love my brother so, so much.
And every broadcast of another shooting breaks my
heart. It breaks my heart for those
killed and for those committing the killing.
For both are losses.
Not to judge, not to condemn are we the actions of
others. For if every sin is equivalent,
if every sin hurts God and goes against Him, we are all as evil as the next.
Evil exists in this world. Sin exists.
Our flesh brings great evils.
And evil is something we must live in every day.
Its greatest conqueror is love.
My loving merciful Father,
Today was a difficult day. Another shooting in another city. Anger, resentment flourish. Evil spawns evil. And there continues to be more hate and disdain in the world. Too many times this year have we experienced this and my heart hurts all the more. My heart seems to hurt constantly these days. If it's not for my roommate, it's for my family, two thousand miles away. My ailing father, my brother who will never know what it is to be "normal," and a mother who has spent a life not pursuing a life I wonder that may have provided her more fulfillment than a woman carrying for an entire family on her own now. I think back on the One Year Challenge and how I expected dating to be as important to me as it was in the beginning of the challenge. Are you who the person you're looking for is looking for? Another Andy Stanley quote. That question transformed my life and soon I cared less about attracting a certain type of person by being a certain type of person and genuinely have centered the will of God in the center of my life. I do wonder if I'll ever be married, and I am open to dating, but I haven't heard Your will just yet. Of those men who have asked and inquired, I don't hear Your assurance. And until I hear that, I won't be out there willy-nilly with just any guy. No, I wait on You. For You are faithful. Truly, You are. And though my curiousity remains at who You may bring into my life, I will continue to live life as if every day is a blessing in itself, because it is.
God, though this stage of life has been difficult, though I have let my joy be stolen, when I pray to You, when I speak with You, I find the will to push on. I push myself to see the joy in every day and am reminded of Tony Evans. "We decided a long time ago that what went on out there wouldn't affect was goes on in here."
God, I love You. I love You so much. Please keep me close. I can't do this without You.
My loving merciful Father,
Today was a difficult day. Another shooting in another city. Anger, resentment flourish. Evil spawns evil. And there continues to be more hate and disdain in the world. Too many times this year have we experienced this and my heart hurts all the more. My heart seems to hurt constantly these days. If it's not for my roommate, it's for my family, two thousand miles away. My ailing father, my brother who will never know what it is to be "normal," and a mother who has spent a life not pursuing a life I wonder that may have provided her more fulfillment than a woman carrying for an entire family on her own now. I think back on the One Year Challenge and how I expected dating to be as important to me as it was in the beginning of the challenge. Are you who the person you're looking for is looking for? Another Andy Stanley quote. That question transformed my life and soon I cared less about attracting a certain type of person by being a certain type of person and genuinely have centered the will of God in the center of my life. I do wonder if I'll ever be married, and I am open to dating, but I haven't heard Your will just yet. Of those men who have asked and inquired, I don't hear Your assurance. And until I hear that, I won't be out there willy-nilly with just any guy. No, I wait on You. For You are faithful. Truly, You are. And though my curiousity remains at who You may bring into my life, I will continue to live life as if every day is a blessing in itself, because it is.
God, though this stage of life has been difficult, though I have let my joy be stolen, when I pray to You, when I speak with You, I find the will to push on. I push myself to see the joy in every day and am reminded of Tony Evans. "We decided a long time ago that what went on out there wouldn't affect was goes on in here."
God, I love You. I love You so much. Please keep me close. I can't do this without You.
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